Quick Holy Week Update

I am okay. I really am. Even after writing my last post and then seeing the baby pass. Even after five weeks of bleeding. I survived and lived to tell about it :) Ha, through no strength of my own, clearly! Fr. Clayton, at our parish, did a beautiful prayer service last Sunday for all four babies. It was wonderfully healing, and I am so glad a blogger mentioned it to me. I had forgotten it could even be done, despite attending my own siblings' prayer service (my mom lost a child at 20 weeks when I was eight).

I am finding a lot of comfort in the sacraments and, especially, attending mass during this holy week. I have been able to attend the stations twice so far, and I am going to Mary's Way (a version from a mother's perspective). It is the most incredibly moving version of the stations I have ever attended, so mother or not, bring your box of Kleenexes!

I have been "enjoying" seeing Lent through Charlie's perspective. He was glued to the living stations and also the washing of the feet last night. He has finally really taken to the apostle figurines I bought him for Christmas and has been acting out the Holy Week readings. He is precious.

I wish you all a "good" rest of your Lent, a beautiful Holy week, and a blessed Easter!

Thank You and Small Update

You guys are awesome. I loved the comments last time. They made me smile. And fortitude, misfit? I think you have the wrong gal, but thank you anyway! :)

Three weeks and two days later I am still bleeding from the miscarriage. I can definitely say I didn't expect it to be this long. It isn't heavy bleeding, and never really was. The worst was in the beginning, on Valentine's day when I had cramps. I called the office to see if they wanted me to do anything and they had me take a pregnancy test to determine if I still had hcg in my system. It was light. It was probably unnecessary, but they wanted me to go in and get a level. It turned out to be 37, so things are doing what they are supposed to. Just slowly. I am definitely relieved to not have to be scheduling a D&C, though I never really thought it would get to that point after all this time. And I am also thankful I didn't see anything recognizable. I am really not sure I could have handled that. Other symptoms I have had are extreme headaches-thankfully only four and one was really short lived. I think these are from hormone levels dropping quickly. I did have some nights I was dead tired as if I was pregnant and passed out early. I simply could not keep my eyes open. And my appetite stayed up a lot longer than I would have liked. But overall, I am glad I opted to do this at home and it was on the mild side considering what it could have been.

I do have a silent prayer request if you all don't mind. I know you guys are rock star prayer warriors, and I am so grateful to have you in my life.