tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-504195045693659634.post6945016892703044062..comments2023-04-26T08:01:29.393-05:00Comments on Life from Inside the Wheelbarrow: When Enough is Enough and The Peace That Surpasses All Understanding WheelbarrowRiderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09786312554610653043noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-504195045693659634.post-85622004686344755482014-03-20T19:45:32.522-05:002014-03-20T19:45:32.522-05:00Misfit, well said!Misfit, well said!WheelbarrowRiderhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09786312554610653043noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-504195045693659634.post-72281441369745955772014-03-05T09:18:31.655-06:002014-03-05T09:18:31.655-06:00I know our journeys with IF couldn't be more d...I know our journeys with IF couldn't be more different in most ways, but I identify so strongly with this: "I just don't feel I need to know I did everything." <br /><br />Sometimes even the people who love us most feel (out of love?) that they need to push us - remind us of their hope for our success the next time, their prayers for our "miracle." I think they mean well. But another baby, conquering an earthly problem, isn't the only victory, and sometimes isn't that best thing that God is offering us. Sometimes that best thing is peace. God bless. the misfithttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05206278843624907697noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-504195045693659634.post-17139885395367440922014-02-26T21:28:54.196-06:002014-02-26T21:28:54.196-06:00Amy, I appreciate your story and the time you took...Amy, I appreciate your story and the time you took to share it. It is always good to have other perspectives, and I welcome that. I am glad you were able to keep your morals and have a healthy twin pregnancy with an RE after losses. I am so happy for you! My body seems to have handled Toth's treatment well. I do not doubt I have an infection due to dh's diagnosis of chlam.ydia through mainstream doctors more than once, but I do think it is important for others to know this isn't always the case of TEBB. I am okay with the fact that TEBB might not mean our infection is back and that is because we did have peace discerning this decision and I am not plagued with what ifs this test or that test proves something else or X stone is left unturned. I am fine to leave it unturned, really. I am at peace where we are at. We will always be open to life, but for me that won't mean actively ttc with climid etc. A pregnancy could me in my future, though not likely. A loss could be in my future as well. I will take what comes. I received the anointing of the sick with three of my pregnancies and I was very grateful for it. It is a beautiful thing and I am glad you were able to experience it. Thanks again for following, and taking the time to post. It isn't easy to be the one with a dissenting opinion, but all opinions are welcome here. WheelbarrowRiderhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09786312554610653043noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-504195045693659634.post-41359267465993390942014-02-22T10:38:30.901-06:002014-02-22T10:38:30.901-06:00I went through your same journey. As soon as we go...I went through your same journey. As soon as we got married we tried and had 2 miscarriages. We were virgins at marriage. I had endo surgery with Dr. Hilgers and had some TEBB too. I came up neg. for all infections but the surgery seemed to make things worse. I saw Toth out of desperation. My and hubby had full treatment but after 4 cycles had some TEBB or pre cycle Brown bleeding. I felt hopeless, obsessive and fearful. Dr. Toth pretty much washed his hands of us and Dr. Hilgers told me to eat anti inflammatory. I saw a local NAPRO who had worked at Hilger's clinic and now practices in my state. She urged me to try a RE. I kept to my morals with them. I got pregnant with TEBB and am 24 weeks with healthy twins. My TEBB was never and infection. It seems like a theory only by Toth and Hilgers. I noticed I had it when I had a small cyst and that would go away each cycle. CYSTS may cause TEBB and it was NEVER diaganosed by Dr. Hilger's or Toth. They have tunnel vision. I had the same problem and deal with anger and crankiness because of all the stress. I like you thought it took away from our marriage in only coming together during fertile times. Napro was not meant to bring stress like that. I think that you are a brave woman. I will pray for you. Please have hope and peace. I conceived 2 years after Toth's treatment. The treatment messed me up but the body recovers. I know what it is like to see your baby after a miscarriage and have that burned in your mind. I believe someday peace will come again and you can have a live birth! I got anointing of the sick each month and then during this pregnancy. It helps SO much! Love, AmyAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-504195045693659634.post-16758705682682712612014-02-18T21:58:43.744-06:002014-02-18T21:58:43.744-06:00Thank God for peace. It is hard to come by. (esp...Thank God for peace. It is hard to come by. (especially for me, sometimes). I will keep you in my prayers. Coming to the end of treatment and making a decision isn't easy. (((hugs)))All in His Perfect Timinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00300978285191861049noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-504195045693659634.post-50210784707138056102014-02-16T21:18:51.628-06:002014-02-16T21:18:51.628-06:00E, my P+7 have been great every month. I have not ...E, my P+7 have been great every month. I have not gotten additional bloodwork, nor has it ever been suggested. I could seek additional bloodwork, but honestly, I am not interested in chasing additional things and trying to get them all to line up at the same time. I don't feel caught up in anything, really. I have been feeling at peace since May before even NY. I brought up the TEBB to dh when I saw it, we've had some good discussions. He was not ready to give up this summer and wanted to go to NY, he led that. Now we feel we gave it good effort. We both are tired and ready to move on. I think we are both on the same page and see the good in whatever situation we are in. We are open to adoption, but are going to take some time before we delve into another roller coaster. We know adoption is no guarantee are aren't trading one way of having a child for another. We are at peace with our family as it is, but are open to God's will and growing our family other ways. Thanks for your comment. I am sure there are stones left unturned, really, but I feel good where we are at. WheelbarrowRiderhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09786312554610653043noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-504195045693659634.post-68707654987536644452014-02-15T09:57:27.832-06:002014-02-15T09:57:27.832-06:00Building a family is so hard! That darn TEBB...tha...Building a family is so hard! That darn TEBB...that is awful. What are your P+7 levels? Is P4 too low? E2 too low? Sometimes that can cause the TEBB, too.<br /><br />I really hate CT. Yuck. <br /><br />Oh and having a loss, I hate that, too. How does your DH feel about all this? I know when I get all wrapped up in it sometimes my DH can have some clarity to the situation. Prayers for you!Ehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09136169986057927090noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-504195045693659634.post-35260249382275106722014-02-14T15:25:16.794-06:002014-02-14T15:25:16.794-06:00It's a blessing to have peace after all you ha...It's a blessing to have peace after all you have done to achieve and keep a pregnancy. It is not an easy decision to move forward. Wishing you the best and thank you for sharing. Rachelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12928196702575539293noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-504195045693659634.post-20612791382224929542014-02-14T13:53:10.854-06:002014-02-14T13:53:10.854-06:00I do think there comes a time when a couple knows ...I do think there comes a time when a couple knows it's time to stop....and it sounds like you are there. It is peaceful to stop TTC'ing and know in your heart it's okay. My dh and I are there as well and can be 100% invested in this new adoption journey we are on. I haven't looked back with regret at all.prayerfuljourneyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15549430693172260600noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-504195045693659634.post-48857073016379137982014-02-14T08:40:50.296-06:002014-02-14T08:40:50.296-06:00I am so happy you are feeling peace. I will conti...I am so happy you are feeling peace. I will continue to pray that the peace continues and God leads you on His path for you and your family. If you ever need anything, you know I'm just down the road. Love you!stacym88https://www.blogger.com/profile/18244883275130837087noreply@blogger.com