The Nothing New Update

I can't believe I have gone this long without posting, but what can I say?  There is nothing to say really.  but somehow, I am pretty sure I will find something to blog about...haha!

There was a tiny scare.  I didn't get overly worried, but I think I started a post and then quit and never got back to it.  What happened was lots of sharp pains that were over a few days.  Pain alone doesn't bother me, knowing lots is going on, but then I realized in the shower lymph nodes in my groin area were huge and tender.  Ut oh.  My mind went to infection.  I emailed Dr. Toth and asked if I should start the orals earlier than the scheduled May 12th.  And called my doctor.  Dr. Toth said it was around the time that corpus luteum was absorbed and that could cause is.  My doc said could be a viral infection coming on.  Turns out the next day I got a miserable horrible cold that started with a sore throat and moved to coughing junk and then face full of snot.  Good times.  Hoping the baby and dh don't get it. 

I should tell you my progesterone went up for the second time in a row-woohoo!  This time it seemed relatively substantial (10 points maybe?! still not where it started-so odd) but I can't tell you exactly because like everything in my life it is scribbled lightly on some post it that probably also contains a half written grocery list.  They did let me half my progesterone.  I am 13 weeks today so maybe the placenta is doing what is should?  It didn't last time.  One thing is for sure, I am grateful to be this far along.  And, the exhaustion is no longer daily, but I still get sick if I don't eat pretty often.  That will pass, but I will trade for new symptoms I am sure.  Like heartburn. :)

I went to a lovely baby shower Saturday of a dear friend.  She had been trying to get pregnant ever since she got married  (June '08) and I couldn't be happier for her.  At her shower, she said some nice things about how hard it was to get there and how the odds were against her and how she appreciated it all so much more.  It reminded me...when I was trying to get pregnant, I would often picture myself at my own baby shower.  The thought would overwhelm me and I would literally cry (IRL) tears of joy imagining finally getting to that moment.  This happened multiple times, every time I thought about it.  I thought I would be a wreck on the day, full of tears, but I really wasn't.  I gave a similar speech and glowed, but really not the tears like when I pictured it.  I always thought that was interesting.

I have been busy working on my dissertation and things are going relatively well for once.  It seems that it has slightly changed (with big implications) so many times, but last time was great and needed and I am so happy wtih it.  My passion is back, thankfully.  This will get me through the rest of the work and frustration I am sure.  I have almost written a post many times about how jacked up this process is, but I am not sure if it will help or make me dwell on it more.  Now that I am at a better place, maybe best not to relive that. 

So that is it for now.  Oh, one more thing, I also want to tell you my best friend that returned from a huge long trip to Peru (months!) is now in Costa Rica for a long time (my pregnancy brain can't remember her return date-but it was like 6-8 weeks).  She is so adventurous and brave.  She researches and saves and then goes alone, but meets people along the way and knows people there.  She does mostly off the beaten track things.  She is a runner and very athetic.  In Peru she climbed mountains, volcanoes, canyons, hiked to Mayan Ruins, and did a ton of amazing things.  Variation Under Nature is her wordpress blog.  She is living singleness to the fullest.  I hope that she lives that way when she is married without kids yet too-I live vicariously :)