Dh asked if I wanted him to come, but I said no. I knew the news wasn't good. I didn't schedule it with his schedule in mind at all, and I didn't want him to bend over backwards to make it work. I am glad he asked though.
I went in and was scanned immediately. I didn't see a heartbeat and she confirmed it. I wasn't sad in that room. I was a little relieved, in some sense, that the drug out process was complete. It knew she was in heaven. No more waiting, wondering when the time would be. She was there. She is now content and peaceful, I don't doubt that. And she is in good company.
I mentioned I would like pictures if possible. She coudln't get the ones from last time, so she asked if I would feel okay if she took some now. I was fine with that and so I left with some. A nurse came in, my favorite, and hugged me and told me she was in heaven, and I was grateful for such an amazing office.
*Update The surgery went well. I was home by 10am, a little nauseated despite all their efforts, but I was able to sleep through it and the discomfort is easily managed by pain meds. It was a bit emotional and I did cry going back and when I came to. I am alright, despite that, I guess I just needed a release. My husband was so sweet to come home with a dozen roses last night and he is taking good care of me. I hope I won't regret this, but we decided to do chromosomal testing on the baby since we were already in a controlled environment. There is a good chance we will learn the gender from this. Also, we will learn if the cause of death was chromosonal. We have already met our out of pocket maximum, so I am hopeful there is no charge for this. My anxiety comes from the chance this may not be covered by insurance. What is your all's experience with this? It won't likely affect anything we do in the future, just wanted it for peace of mind, but not with a $1500 price tag or something like that. I am hoping it would be covered with 3 miscarriages now, but the chance it won't is nagging at me. I only knew to ask for it because of the women on the blogs, so I appreciate any info you have.